Volunteer for stuff. No, really.

I've just come from one disability meeting having been invited to another, more influential one. I think the people involved are just jumping at the chance of there being a student who actually seems to give a shit (as one of them put it). Well, if the SU Disability officer isn't doing much (I've not seen him at any of the meetings I've been going to even though he'd said he'd attend many of them) I might as well. Although it is kind of scary meeting all these very important bigwigs at the university and having them know who I am and amusing that I seemed to be the token disabled person there as well as the token student. They actually seemed to be paying attention to what I have to say though and are actually interested in hearing it too which is a novelty. So yes, might be actually making a difference here. Which is nice.

So the Students With Disabilities Association still seems to be dying a death thanks to apathy all around and not enough numbers (we got 20 out of 800-odd potential members) but hey, I'm getting enough contacts and information to really get stuff started if I do decide to run for Studets With Disabilities Officer at the Union next year. And hey, at least I'll be getting paid for attending the same meetings I am now.

Now, to a practical! Woo.

My back really hurts. There's this lecture today which isn't compulsory but would be very useful for one of my modules, plus the careers fair is today, so I'm in two minds about walking into uni to do that. I'm hoping it's just a bad pain day thing as I really need to go to my practicals tomorrow. Stupid back.

Additional: Yep, back's properly gone. Nothing to do but rest until tomorrow now.

On the other hand I've got my Citalopram sorted out now so I don't have to worry about that running out.

1 deadline down this month 4 more to go. I hate the fact that there's nowhere in main building I can work that doesn't involve stairs because the MESci room is apparently only for 4th years (I'll check this tomorrow because it's a waste of a room if only 3 people can use it) and the downstairs library tables are always full of lazy people who can't be bothered to go upstairs to the study areas there. Grawr.

In other news, I actually cooked yesterday! I made pumpkin soup and it was very tasty. I might try the same recipe but with butternut squash at some point in the future.

I think the next couple of weeks will be me living between reading papers at home and working at uni. I have so much work to do it's ridiculous. On the other hand, I've got all the work I'm going to get for the moment and my master's project is sorted out. Just need to learn how to do multivariate analysis for it. Yay.

So yes, don't be surprised if you don't see much of me in the near future.

*sigh* Today was vaguely unproductive. I spent 3 (3!) hours in the dentist to be told that I get to try out having a brace-type thing for my clicky jaw in two weeks, also that an operation isn't off the cards yet. I ended up being late to my lab practical because I was daft enough to think that two and a half hours would be enough time for an appointment (ha!) although the exercise wasn't very long so I managed to catch up.

I've been dumped with five ton of work at uni though and I'm trying to read papers and keep up on top of it but none of it's going in I don't think. At least not for geomorphology but I always found that subject hard. *sigh* I'm honestly trying hard this year and it just doesn't seem to be working. Still, carry on anyway right?

*sigh* I feel terrible today.

Gah. I have the lurgy.

Help, help. I can't keep the kitten off my laptop.

4reeeeeeeeeeeeeee\dqw2d

Productive day today. I'm now past half way (or quarter way depending on how much time I have) on taking the diatom pictures and there seems to be some correlation between Eucampia numbers and fasiculation of the Thalassiosira lentiginosa. So yay.

I also went and got the card needed for the Freshers Fayre (turns out the Union sells it so that saved a trip into town) and have made the banner for the stall. Maps are printed off and I'm hoping to confirm the room booking for the talk on Thursday so then I can print off the handouts. *sigh* I'm terrified no-one's going to join up again although it's free this year so here's hoping we can grab a few more people this time round.

So I'm going to run out of things to watch fairly soon. What should I be watching, people? Rec me some programmes. Please?

Because I have to get my amusement from somewhere while measuring pictures on my laptop with a ruler. Only 1500 pictures left to take and measure of those circular little buggers though. Only -.-

Got my results from my not-technically-resits. Passed them all. Actually did better in the ones I thought I did worst in and visa versa. Don't care, passed them all. Which means I can go into year 3 properly now. Yay!

Following the nurse's advice (read: orders) and going home again for the bank holiday. I hate imposing on people like this, especially with having just come back from there, but at the moment it's the only way I can cope with my brain being the way it is. Plus, all the doctors at the health centre are away until after Tuesday so it's not like I can even get my meds changed at the moment. *sigh* I has good timing.

So yes, I'm back in Cardiff after coming back from an emergency trip back to the parental units because I need people around me these days. It's strange. Even this time last year I'd have rather spent the entire week going stir-crazy than go visit home but I've just spent the last week doing just that and I want to go back even now. I think it's my new and somewhat less improved state of mind doing it possibly but I'm actually homesick for the first time in my life. I don't like it.

One exam down, two to go.

I don't think I've failed it but I know I haven't done well in it. I finished in half the allotted time then scarpered because I could feel the panic coming through again and the last thing I wanted to do was sit there in a room, on my own barring the examiners, and have another panic attack.

Gah, I want to go to sleep for the rest of today really but alas the meds also mean that I'm awake until 10/11 tonight. Stupid brain.

Back from the parental units'. Actually had quite a nice, relaxing time and got lots of revision done. Hopefully this'll be enough for tomorrow.

So, did I miss much while I was gone? What's up with you guys?

I'm off to the parental units until Sunday so I won't have internet very much (depending on if the sibling has fixed her computer yet or not).

And then, exams starting Monday. Joys.

Nurse says I should keep writing in my journal and here I realise that it's been a while since I wrote in it.

So. Still feeling blah and nervous and stressed but that's unlikely to pass until after my exams (10th, 12th and 14th of August) and once I've got other stuff sorted but that'll be resolved by that time too one way or another. Gah, I hate this jumpy feeling. I don't even want to think what I'd be like without any medication which worries me even more.

Asdfgl, can I go back to two summers ago when all I had to worry about was rats in the walls?

Huh. I've won the TMS Student Award for the best performance in my Microfossils module. No idea what this involves as of yet but still... Neat.

Edit: Turns out I get a year's free membership to the Micropalaeontological Society. Neat.

Woke up too early,
Got shiny new hand braces,
And plot for fanfic.